Am I the same person?
My body is stiffer, my mind is more distracted, my gene pool is flourishing, I am richer, I am wiser.
But may be, the starkest difference is that I am full of gratitude, I am more humble because there is a lot I have to be humble about and that I am dying.
Nothing serious really, it's just that life is something you experience right until the moment you die. And then, all you have is eternity.
I have two small kids now and my world is larger because of them; there is more to be alive for and be more aware of and be fitter. I am on my way out and I continually see me through their eyes - and its a joyful out of body experience.
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The fleetingness of love, marriage, life, money and most importantly, happiness keeps chipping at me.
I had once written about happiness and contentment - and how the motive ought to be joy and contentment.
I would be a fool if I asked for a better life.
These last 10 years have seen a big shift in how we manage our time. We dont sit at a computer anymore do we? We dont wait for the news - we dont even know what is new. I see anxiety around me and inside me and I hope that we find a way back to the cassette and to the waiting for the train and to the silence.
I wonder if I will write more...
