Sunday, March 14, 2010


It's such a fight, the one that we are all a part of.

What is this life if full of care
We have no time to stand and stare?
No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheep, or cows.
No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass.
No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night.
No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance.
No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began.
A poor life this, if full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

William Henry Davies 1871 - 1940

The irony of this poem is that I had learnt it word for word, and I would recite it at an unusually fast pace.
What I am talking about is how we desire to chalk our lives and how we run full throttle towards that which we believe, or are made to believe, destiny. There is never an end in sight because we are forever pressurized by all that we hold dear. We never want to lose our freedom and we seek to keep those around us, happy.
We need to understand that we will choose companions and dump them.
We need to understand that we are but passing figments in this time continuum.
May be this is what Ayn taught me, or rather, I taught myself... I come first. Caveats exist, but don't be afraid of some decisions.
Sure, you are bound to cry and you are bound to writhe in pain, but that is what makes you whole.
Tread lightly, make changes, be impulsive, cry vehemently; be afraid of falling, but not afraid of walking.
When was the last time you heard your inner voice?
When was the last time you kissed yourself?
Go now, and find yourself.


Rohan Sura said...

Do you believe in destiny?

'Sure, you are bound to cry and you are bound to writhe in pain, but that is what makes you whole.' Well said. :)

Tirath said...

See, this question is so fucked up :(
I believe that everything can and will happen in only one way - therefore, I do believe in destiny. However, there is an illusion of control - but illusions are beliefs, no? I believe that I have to make decisions, even though somethings are outside my locus of control.
Let's just say that I believe in destiny, but let's also say that I will not succumb to it. Is that ok?

Rohan Sura said...

Interesting thought. I completely understand what you mean. What bothers me about destiny, like god, is that it is easy to believe things will happen a certain way. We do our best, and all that; I'm with you. We believe our actions will lead to certain outcomes but that is not always true, despite the efforts. We do have an illusion of control; we like to believe we're 'in control'. We're not. But that, I believe, is not destiny. I think we go too far when we say that everything is pre-destined. Its not predetermined. How about considering the possibility that our life is a random event? That it is a collage of events, happenings, incidences, surprises, and twists: whatever one likes to call such things.

This human urge to find substitutes for everything incomprehensible is an act of faith. Once again, as I said before, I'm afraid I dont have much faith. I lack it. Not that I'm proud, perhaps a little cynical. But incomplete, nonetheless, like everyone else.

tirath said...

:) Yes my darling; we are incomplete, just like everyone else.
And yes, I believe in the collection of random chains - and may be, that's what I would call destiny; that which cannot be explained.
I also believe that destiny, as you said, was a notion created by people to feel more secure. I have believed this for a long time now; when something goes awry and cannot (or is not wanted to) be explained, people can dump it on destiny.